Just tell me who I am,
I hardly recognize this face.
Just tell me where I fit in,
In this world where is my place?
I'm drifting away not knowing where I'm headed,
Falling apart where rose petals gathered.
I dreamt of things I thought I could achieve,
Didn't once think I'd lose with such ease.
I learnt to hide my tears and fight my way through,
Didn't once think I'd lose this battle so soon.
Love but came by and changed my life,
I no longer had a reason to turn to this knife.
Life long sorrow and pain but soon drifting away,
Only joy and laughter meaning to stay.
Whenever I thought about you I felt so safe in some way,
Like I was no longer part of life's crazy play.
I found this place in your heart that made me feel like I was someone,
I could be who I was and at the same time have some fun.
But now that I think back I can't find my own way,
There's a certain play of sorrow drifting this way.
Days are empty and bleak but not because you're not by my side,
It's because from deception and lies one cannot hide.
Every morning brings with it another day,
But there is nothing special about it in any way.
You trudge along silently as time goes by,
But loosing yourself inside as you break down and cry.
Wondering the reason why your fate suddenly changed,
Everything that moved so smoothly now seemingly deranged.
Hope and dreams no longer glimmer in your eyes,
Another zombie walking with wings that can no longer fly.
It's just hopeless to carry on further with dreams now crashed,
It's pointless to live when inside your entire being has been trashed.
Upon cold stone your heart sheds a tear,
Losing those that you always thought to be dear.
One heart cannot live through incidences that disappoint not but one,
But suicide is not an option for one cannot run.
But wherein shall you believe when the father of them all breaks a girls trust,
Tell me to whom shall you go when you feel you must?
Had it been a small incident one would not weep,
But silently hold it to oneself deep inside to keep.
But it was an innocent girls life with which you played,
There's nothing to hold onto and no one to turn to in this day and age.
