Its My fault i'm alone

I am sitting here typing
while tears fall on the keys
why am i so alone?
would some one help me please?
i have come to a conclusion
one that i don't quite understand
all this is an illusion
Sand that dissolves in my hand
i have opened my eyes to the truth
and now know why i am so alone
It is my selfishness, it is my stress,
it is my tone
Why do i attack those who love me?
those who care and love
Those innocent angels who were sent from above
Why put out my fire on there hearts?
While I'm relieved there falling into parts
I have become a monster, a monster who complains
while i am my own issue, i am my own pain
I have hanged myself with my own rope
Not noticing there is a drop of hope
I cry and scream and ask
why am i so alone
but i am the reason, its my fault I'm thrown.