Alone

Part one:
can i?
just one,
very small
so no one will
suspect anything
really small
no one will care
no one will know.
Please?

part two:
i can't.
i promised i wouldn't
too bad.
but in the end,
for the better.
i'd get carried away,
this i know
but no one's around...

Part three:
can someone help
me get through this?
no ones answering
their phone
it's my wish
but i promised,
so i can't.

Part four:
No!
i can't
i just have to deal with
all my pain
and get through it
somehow by myself

Part five:
it's helping a little,
maybe now
things will get a little better
maybe fake a smile?
then feel better.
but i'm still alone...