When you broke me, it didnt just break my heart
My body aches so much that I think this might kill me
The antidepressants that I took every night
The ones that did not help too much at all
The ones that you always gave me and made sure I swallowed
The same ones that I refuse to take now
Are in the trash right next to my bed
Anxiety and depression have separated me from the rest of this painful world
This is more than just agony
You were supposed to save me
Not push me over the edge
The very edge that I was hanging onto in the first place
I wish I could claw my own heart out
Piece by broken piece
Instead of just leaving it there to deteriorate
My pulse is quickening as I fall apart
Absolutely destroyed by you
It just isn�¢ï¿½ï¿½t fair that I am the one who has to feel the pain
When I havent even anything wrong
All of this time I have been begging God to send me a sign of what to do
Would he forgive me for refusing to make a choice
Does he really want me here to endure this?
I begged for God to forgive me if I chose to end my life
But I just couldnt leave your side
But now that youre gone, what is there left to do?
Now that you have left me with only one thing to choose
You have already killed everything that was left in me before you I met you
Why must I accept to live with this excruciating agony?
If I just pull myself away from everything and bury myself in this agony
Quit taking those pills that were prescribed especially for this
Then I just know it will be that much easier to take my life
To just leave this all behind.
