Why'd I Lose You?

Eyes filled
with water, with pain
with a fear; a hurt
I cannot explain.

It's been so long
since I was alone.
Now I see how much
we've changed; we've grown.

I don't know what to be
without you.
What were we thinking?
What did we fall into?

Did we mean it,
when we said those things?
Cuz now that you're gone
my heart no longer sings.

I can't smile the same
and I can't laugh for real.
I hate how I'm hurting.
I hate how this feels.

I miss you so much.
Sorry if that's wrong
but you're where my heart
simply wants to belong.

I can't help this aching,
I lost my best friend.
I wasn't ready.
Didn't want this to end

I look back at the times
when you held me near,
and promised me forever
I'd have nothing to fear.

But I'm fearing forever,
cuz I'm not in your arms.
My minds settin' off
all kinds of alarms.

I need you to breathe.
My heart is alone.
It's bearing a pain
that it's never known.

And I know we can't go back.
Not tryin' to make you feel bad.
I just want you to know
how much you mean, Chad.

I meant those three words,
and I'll never regret them.
You'll forever remain in my heart,
a precious gem.

I love every memory.
I hold them so dear.
Losing you as a friend
is what I most fear.

So please forgive me,
for all that I've done,
and lets make this friendship
one that's just begun.