When life goes bad

As each day goes by
life gets harder
making me feel like giving up
or sometimes wanting to end my own life
I don't though!

I just go into the darkest corner i could find
where i can be alone!
there's nothing but silence
A razor in my hands
cut's on both of my wrists
I do nothing but sit there and cry
ponder on all the things that go wrong
while my own blood creates a puddle around me

One day my misery is going to get the best of me
it's going to consume me
swallowing every orifice i have
my anger,
my sorrow,
is taking control at a slow pace!

I can't breath
it's like my lung are shot
like my throat is slit
I want to commit suicide
yet I can't and won't!
only because I don't want to hurt my girlfriend
the one person who loves me for who I am
but I'm really tired of all this shit!