~We're running and running as far as possible, not ceasing to look back. No second chance or backwards glance of what we're leaving behind. The music blares from the radio but still the silence is overwhelming. The events that occured just hours before have my mind doing sommersaults. Doubt and fear overtake my thougts, and i begin to wonder if you're thinking the same. It would seem nearly impossible to be feeling as I do now. After patientely waiting three long years to finally be with you, I never assumed I'd be thinking such things.
~Just as planned it's my eighteenth birthday. At precisely 12am your car, headlights dimmed, was parked outside my house. There I stood readily awaiting your arrival. My nerves were shot and every reason to stay plagued my mind. You helped me load my pink and black, ancient, suitcases into your trunk as I shifted my eyes toward the house. It seemed unreal that this was finally happening. I'd never been away from home, but my independence called out and I had to grasp it or I feared that chance would never return again. I slid into the seat of your car and you shut my door. It was time. I secretly sighed and a half-smile appeared on my face. I took a deep breath not sure I could take it all in. Finally, I held in my hands what I had longed for my entire life - freedom.
~Now I sit in the passenger seat of you '65 dodge. You roll the window down and the breeze of the Autumn night covers me. It traces the nape of my neck and I tremble as the chill overtakes my body. I pull my legs up to my chest and hug my knees to escape the cold. Unbuckling my seatbelt, i move to the center of your car as you slide your arm around me and pull me into you. As I rest my head in the nape of your neck, I breathe you in. The smell of you cologne captures me.
~I turn my attention to your face. Your hazel eyes are filled with mixed emotions. I can see the fear you are trying to hide. I'm scared, too. Why? I do not know. I do know, however, there's nothing or no one that can stop us now; we're already gone. But being on our own for the first time has hit me like a wave crashing to the shore. The moonlight shining through the window allows the tears streaming down my face to come into view. They reach my tongue and I can taste the salty bitterness. You must notice me crying because you present a smile and a gentle kiss to my forhead - reassuring everything would be ok. In exchange, I lace my fingers through yours and pull you in closer.
~A whispered "I love you" are the only words spoken but they are what we both needed to hear. Their power and strenght have brought us this far and will continue to take us further. I look out the window at the rain dancing on the ground and smile. It's the end of our childhood; the end of our immiturity that once inhabited us. The end of no responsibility and foolishness. We're all each other has now, but we're all each other needs. Most importantly though it's the end of our separation - and the beginning of forever I'll spend with you.
