Am i here?

I'm all alone in a crowed room,
no way to escape trapped in gloom.
my chest feels tight, my knees turn weak,
I'm sinking fast, deep and deep.

people talking all around, hurt my head,
mind overloading, cant help the tears i shed.
i want to go home, curl up in a ball,
ignore the world, that saw my fall.

20minutes left of mind thinking,
cant help but think I'm sinking,
sinking into darkness and gruel,
y am i like this? y is life so cruel?

i look around for someone to help me,
but no words come out, no one can see.
i feel all alone trapped in space,
no one can see the pain upon my face.

the darkness draws me nearer,
the way ahead becomes less clearer.
where do i go from here? will i be free?
will anyone ever pay attention to me?

( wrote this poem in maths lesson about 3 yrs ago, never had the time to get round to putting it on here )