To my mother

You abandoned me,
and left me to grow up alone
I had to learn everything,
everything on my own.
you're a deceiver,
you're killing me inside.
you say you'll change but I'm not a believer,
that part of me has already died.
I've lost all faith in you,
you're not the mom I wish I had,
cause what more can I do?
I needed someone there so bad.
you wonder why I'm so messed up,
but you've only got yourself to blame.
it's not my fault that you screwed up,
and it's a damn shame.
can't you see how your drinking has made me feel?
I realized the problem at so young and it was just so unreal.
I'm stronger now and independent,
so thank you mom for making me wise.
cause In the long run I'll be better and far more resplendent.
thank you for all those lies.