The past is haunting me.

It was long ago when I gazed into my own eyes
and declared, I want to be, I will be, no matter how many tries.
Determination was rising to the surface of my soul then,
and I was in a race against time, I stood up again and again.

Questions about the future I asked to those who seemed to know everything.
Wishes whispered full of hope under the stars all a-glittering.
Explored and wondered about things unknown.
Excited, eager, innocent and strong.

As I look back at all this now, I ask:
Why did I waste my time trying to grow up so fast?
I wanted to be this and I wanted to be that.
I was engulfed in my future so I let my present pass.

My future; this seemingly overwhelming occurrence now just steps away from me.
And I haven't much time before I dive into this whole new realm and what I once was, I could never again be.

Yes, I am prepared. I am educated, well off and physically capable for all I have ahead of me.
But I must ask myself: Am I really sure that for all this I am ready?

Am I ready to embrace this whole new chapter in this book of life?
It has come so fast and I could not stop it. I could not defy.
How many times have I wanted to go back. Do what I didn't, say what I wanted.
But it is all too late now and there are many things still regretted.

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why is it that when we are kids, we hurry to grow up so fast..but when we are old, we tend to look back at our childhood and wish to be young again?..what is life if we don't live it?..it's a precious blessing to us..we should use it wisely..live, laugh, love..be the best that you can be..don't live in regret.