I kind of gave up on trying too hard,
It just wasn't even worth the pain.
Even though it eventually went numb,
I grew tired of having to explain.
Repeating myself to many others,
I finally closed myself up inside.
I barely let anyone see the real me,
As somewhere deep I would hide.
Mainly to ignore my confusing thoughts,
I would listen to music to drown it all out.
Ignoring the people and their stares,
I was tired of trying to figure it all out.
I closed myself up deep down inside;
I locked my emotions so I couldn't feel.
I began to wonder if anyone cared,
If the pain I felt was actually real.
Sometimes my thoughts surround me,
As I wonder if anyone feels the same.
How horrible it is to actually think;
I am not the only one who feels the pain.
