Break Up No Make Up

I catch myself thinking,
What if he was mine again,
What if I had him back,
As my lover and best friend?

I catch myself thinking,
What if I never lied,
What if I never said it,
And what If I never tried?

I catch myself thinking,
Why won't he forgive me,
I found it in my heart,
To forgive him, see?

As confused as I am,
I now see true colors,
Of the one I still love,
In the eyes of dreamers.

Dreaming of him in my sleep,
Oftenly caught dreaming in my day,
I sit there and think to myself,
If only he was here to stay.

I catch myself thinking,
About all the long talks,
Talking about us and us,
Going out for long walks.

I catch myself thinking,
About all the smiles we shared,
All the laughs we passed,
And all the risks we had dared.

I catch myself thinking,
About all the promises we made,
Only yours left broken and betrayed,
And for me, it's time for an upgrade.

I waited.
You never showed.
You tell me you love me.
But today it snowed.