Desserve to Breathe?

Take a deep breathe
Breathe. Jesse. Breathe.

Deserve to breathe?
Me?
No, what I deserve is 30 feet at the bottom of a pool
With sharks
This way if I somehow make it to the top
And inhale again and feel air
They kill me
Rip me
My blood mixing with the water like smoke in air
Red
Red smoke and taste it
Tastes like copper
Clouding the water as I go
Gone
Going
Still going
Not gone yet
I can feel it
Them
Tearing at me
Killing me
Why the fkcu won't I die
Why the fkcu won't they kill me
The water is darker
Blood can be black too
Clouding

DAMN IT JESSE BREATHE

Breathing
Inhale
Exhale
Scream
Break the fkcuing mirror
With the shatter pieces in my hand
The shattered sharks in my hand
Running the water
In the tub
Well.
You know the rest.