Just as before, I leap in someone else's ocean
And their sea of troubles becomes mine
And even though I don't want to own this ocean
I've already dived into its dirty grime
To lose all sense of time.
I wish every day, for a different lover;
One with caring in her nurturing bones.
And if that girl exists somewhere lower
Then I'll go below where the sun never shone.
In the depths of hell, between black holes,
I lay and wait for you to wake up and come.
You fall asleep in my arms, amid my soul;
When I show it to you, you make me feel so dumb.
I never gave up on you, but I gave up on love with you
Knowing you'd never wake up and I'd continue being blue.
I was your experiment on human suffering and pain
And I hope the results satisfied you all the same.
When you ask for my hand, I know your's will be cold
And I grasp it anyways, needing someone to hold.
As the frozen palms of death caress me I have to ask
"If this is love why do you have to wear a mask?"
This isn't new; my heart's acquainted with the pain
And every word you speak comes out like a flame.
I'm turning my head and closing my eyes
To try to forget all of those sad lullibies
That I wrote for you as I cried for love
And you just gave me a push and shove.
When you're gone I wonder if you're doing anything
Or if you're sitting, smiling that I'm not around
And that you don't have to love anyone or anything
As there's no one around you who can make a sound
And you have the loneliness that makes you feel profound.
I'm stranded in the dark, trying to feel a motion
And it leaves me saddened with the sickened notion
That its just another day, as I leap into the ocean
Looking at your lifeless eyes that have no devotion.
