I've been the rock for many people in the past
When it's my go around I don't even know how to ask
I finally shed some tears and burn the last walls down
After so many years I say goodbye to the sad clown
In a moment of weakness I extend my feelings and my hand
A massive hurdle climbed only matched by the size of the demand
The demand is too high and ofcourse cannot be met
Through my weakness I inflict pain and make someone I love upset
In a moment of vulnerability I can't hide what I feel I truly need
A moment I can never take back, the weakness, makes my heart bleed
Do I withdraw my hand never to be extended in need again?
I can't, that's a wall which in the long term leads to pain
I can't help but think I'm being a drama queen, a bit queer
Am I going to let macho bullshit build a wall when the man I want to be is so near?
I struggle with a flood and intensity of feelings and pain
Knowing i will never build walls to deal with these again
Eventually I will pull myself together, find the balance, get a grip
At the moment it seems a monumentus task given that after thirty odd years a different person is steering the ship
In a moment of clarity one thought becomes clear
Never again will I make a decision in my life based on fear
In a moment of pure bliss I daydream of us walking down the beach, hand in hand
I imagine your beach blanket and making love to you on the sand
In a moment of perspective I think I can't possibly be the only person in the world
Sitting at the beach, with a tear in each eye, dreaming of a girl
