Update#1

I think i see your car everywhere i go.
Wherever i go i see a car that looks exactly like yours.
I'm scared to see you outside of school because I'm afraid that you might be with your "new love"
You say that she makes you smile like no other and it tears me up inside because thats what you told me a year ago.
You tell me that you can talk to her about anything and she makes you feel better.
"she has me head-over-heels for her" you say.
but I'm at the point where i don't cry at the thought of it.
i have my new baby.
we've been best friends for years and now I'm finally with someone that litterly wouldn't hurt me for anything.
and the problem isn't him because hes almost perfect but i don't want to be with him like i wanted to be with you.
he loves me he claims and I'm starting to believe that he does. but thats not the issue.
its ME i want to be with you instead of him and whenever you talk about your girl i smile and everything but Ive become so well at pretending that I'm happy i don't know whats real anymore. and its getting in the way of me and him.