UNDERSTAND THIS; THIS IS ME

Do you understand ..
That I dont like you,
Because I cant like me?
And that occasionally I bleed,
Just to escape reality.
I hope you understand ..
That I hide myself,
And this isnt really me.
That this is just the shell,
Of who I always wanted to be.
Try to understand ..
That I can love you a lot,
Without physically loving you.
And that I would give my life,
The second you asked me to.
I need you to understand ..
Why it is I cry at night,
And why Ill never let go.
Please, understand the guilt,
Cause my baby never came home...