I'm hurt

This year didn't start off pretty
What should have been your ninth birthday
ended as just that

Your life took a mere turn
a turn no one would of figured
It disturbs me
knowing it's going to be a year already
since you've been gone

The days are flying by
But your memories aren't
On my mind you reside
In my heart you stay locked in
No key can and will never unlock you

It angers me
You didn't deserve such pain
Not the way you passed
Why weren't you granted an easy way out?
a death in your sleep? ...painless death

Damn it hurts
seeing you-seeing me
knowing this is it
Nine long years
Gone, in a flash
before my eyes
Already?
I'm hurt

R.I.P Fuzzy (99-08)
-Amanda