Free fall...

I stood above the building staring at the street below,
Wondering what I was doing, thinking of how I had no where to go.
I had been kicked out and had no home,
Oh daddy how could you let your little girl go.
The tears I cried, the blood I spilled,
The answers I seek in substances and pills.
I used it all as an escape to cope,
I used it to try and find a way to let go.
Everything was small and unclear,
Seeing things in proportion was always my biggest fear.
So I took a breath and let it all go,
It was at this time my fears began to show.
I was clean; there were no substances inside of me,
I want you to know exactly how it feels
I want you to feel how addiction is real.
It's not glamorous and it's not fun,
It's a battle of which the war has only just begun.
And now all that's left are the shattered memories of what destroyed my life,
I guess its time to give up for tonight
so i took my final breath and stared at the streets below
saw my life flash before my eyes
and fell from all the worlds ongoing lies...