The house shook has the clock ticked down
drinks
food
friends and laughter.
the best way to bring in the new year is with those you love.
hearts align
smiles are shared
resolutions are made.
your smile so bright and voice so clam
makes a perfect glimpse of our future.
with my hopes and dreams held high
your hugs make them reality
i was certain we were for forever
the bright sunshine of love
the soft touches of security
the feeling that had me believe
in so much more of life.
i felt safe
i felt right
i felt great
what happened?
i didn't have to think twice of why
i knew you liked her
yet you still lied to me
for days your acting skills deceived me
losing myself in our daydreams
and you were on the sidelines watching her walk away
but the how is what haunts me
when all were happy, glee, bringing in a new year
i brought in a whirlwind of worry and defeat.
your silence hurt more then any words could ever say
then any stab to the heart
you laid there and watched me break.
you froze in my lost
watching my life wander farther and farther into the dark sorrows of depression,
running away from me.
in an unfair game of hide and seek.
my stomach ripped
my tears never ending
and you still said nothing,
you watched me break.
driving you home
loosing my best friend
my lover
my soul
was the most difficult drive a driver must.
even now as i slowly take it hour by hour
grieving the lost of your being with me
you go on
as if nothing happened
i struggle for oxygen
and you smile as you did when you were with me
DID I NOT MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO YOU?
Smiling guilts my heart
looking at your stings my conscious
talking about you chokes my breath
missing you is all i do
moving on has proven to be the hardest thing
my young soul has had to face
