Ihave ur memory burned deep in my heart, my mind, &+ my body.
imiss kissinq ur soft red lips . and when isee you iqet this sudden rush of pain.
& irun away bkuz im just too weak to handle it.
the pain of loosinq you. loosinq you even thouqh inever really had you.
you were never mine. it was somethinq we did. you never took me serious.
neither me or my feelinqs for that matter. ikant believe it's been almost 3 months since iremet you. and 7 weeks since ilast kissed you. and im still not completely over you.
ifeel like a fool. ifell too quickly for you. and you were always the wronq kindof quy to fall for.
ijust didnt want to see it. ididnt want to see what was riqht in front of me.
instead iwas blinded by your huqs, your kisses, your words. your own brother said this;
"ithouqht you were smarter than to qet involved with someone like him" and ithouqht iwas too. iwas just soo stupid. you kan say. iqot swept off my feet by ur charm. ur smile. ur way of beinq. it ended all too soon. and ithink that's the reason why to this day istill think back to those few memories, those times we were toqether. but they don't hurt as much. and ithink that's a qood thinq. but in the end it's like this ; it's hard to qet over somethinq that never had a true beqqininq.
[written on december 8, 2008)
