Broken Promise

I made a promise i have to break
I hate my life for god sake
I promised i wouldn't hurt myself
Or even kill myself.

But this pain is to much
It hurts my heart and such
Pain from the heart is the worst feeling
It feels like someone pounding my heart through the ceiling.

So cutting myself takes the pain to my arm
It keeps my heart away from harm
Or should i cut deep enough to kill?
Or should i just take allot of pills?.

What ever i do
Ill never be able to be with you
So ill be ending my life
With this sharp ass knife.