Wishes don't come true

When i close my eyes

the darkness swallows me whole

I fall into an endless sea of disturbing thoughts and scenes

My energy is focused on breathing

To rip the air from the sky and force it down my throat

Curving it's way to my lungs

feeding me the essences of life

Making the blood course through my veins

Trying to escape from this bleak outcome

i dive deeper into the sea

Maybe if i embrace the darkness it would let me see the light

The light that i crave so much

It's the only thing i hope for

I want to open my eyes and meet the gazes of familiar faces

But im trapped beneath the overwhelming heaviness of my eyelids

Forcing me to stay in the darkness, to listen to my own thoughts

Wishing to be one of the ordinary

Wishing to wake up

Wishing to be free of the silent hell

and so i cry tears that no one seems to see