This truth...i will never understand

I jus wrote this poem...it makes sense but it doesnt make sense.
I am with a guy that will kill/ die for me, I love him yes i do but there is some1 that i love more i mean nothing much to him maybe a friend...but what we had i cant seem to get over, he was the one i wanted to be with. I am still young i never know...
Proboly not finished - Just never want to save it on this computer lol Please Read...Rate...Vote...=)

While the deepest part of your heart yearns for more
I jus sit quietly
He is the urge within my soul
He is the one that makes me whole
Yet youre the one I touch
Yet youre the one that love me
Never will I leave you
Because sure of love
No
Because your heart has been mended to mine
Because love?
But his strength covers my weaknesses
Our souls entangled within
You & me, our bodies entwined
But you will always mean the world to me
He will mean the universe
I love you
Yes I do
But he owns a piece of my heart that I cannot take back
Even if I wanted
I mean nothing more than a mare girl to him
Thats why it will never work
I mean the death, life, everything to you
I wish I could say the same
Never will I utter such words to you.
Never will I break your heart
But the truth still stands
There will always be a void that you can never fill
I shall cover this void
But it goes deep
Never will you find it
Hidden so well
Replaced with a smile & I love you
While my heart still hopes for the day
Maybe one day he will know how I feel
I said I am over him
I said I am at ease
Look deeper into my eyes and Realize the truth
I will always love you
I will always cherish you
I will always just be a friend
He is what is best for me
He loves me
Cant you see?
I wish you felt the same