The pain of numbness

Troubled youths having fun
Experimenting in stupidity
If only our experimental point
Had some kind of validity

We douse ourselves in alcohol
And light ourselves on fire
As if dying a painful death
Is some sort of desire

But they say that for the first 10 seconds
You don't even feel a thing
If only I knew how they felt
Oh how my heart would sing

I cannot explain it but
My arms feel no pain
This numbness I feel
Is driving me insane

I don't feel the skin
But I can feel when bones break
I don't know how much more of this
My mind can take

The pain of numbness
Is emotionally severe
I can't feel my lovers touch
I can't feel the wetness of a tear

I let my hand burn for 5 minutes
Until the flame went out
I just stared at it wishing I knew
What pain was all about

How can you possibly know this
And still want to lay by my side
I guess this is where I'm meant to be
Because in her embrace is where I reside

She is what makes me want to live
She's what makes me feel whole
The fire in her eyes is what matters
I feel her burning into my soul

Dedicated To: Christina