First to make me cry

Feeling so lost
trying to find my way
pain is taking over
it's living my day

all started with a guy
figures I guess
said he loved me
turned to a mess

is it my fault for trusting
or is it just him
her made me so happy
but left me so grim

now nothing makes sense
I say things I didn't feel
I feel like I'm going crazy
while I'm just trying deal

this pain is exceeding
it's turning so many turns
making my heart heat up
making it start to burn

he has a power over me
and I really didn't get why
he was my first love
the first to make me cry