I love you too much, I won't let you see!

I lay here and you are like stone.
You walk off and leave me alone.
What did I do, what should I have done?
You expected miracles, but you were my first one.
You don't even notice the pain that I'm in.
you don't even smile, after I let you win.
I'm a female in pain as you go and redress.
I couldn't do anymore, I tried my best.

You pushed me away as I struggled to hide,
my burning flesh as it tore from inside.
You look blankly behind me;
I wonder what you can see.
Can you see my hurt or even my face?
Or are you alone, off in your place?
Pain of the body and pain of the heart.
Your blank unmoved stare rips me apart.

You are like stone, a rock in your mind.
You have left all thought of me, trail behind.
I'll lay here and recover, wrapped in your sheets.
My pain surges slowly as my heart strongly beats.
Your face is unnerving, you look so far away.
I want you to hold me. I'm lost as to what I should say.
I'll sit here and cry but you'll see no tears
you read your book as I face alone all my fears.

You plan to get drunk. I can hear you on the phone.
I'm afraid of you now; so I'll just walk home
Its dark out there but I must get away
I hear the drink in all the words that you say
You bend on one knee, but not to give me a ring,
You fall to the floor. I walk away as you sing.
The clouds roll in heavy, black like your heart,
Lightning crackles above and I fall apart.

I fall to the floor and cry in the rain.
I can't find my feet, to get up again.
My phone rings in the dark, who's on the end?
The perfect person to save me, he is your best friend.
He rushes to find me so I'm not alone.
He thinks nothing of himself as he walks me home.
He wraps me up warm and puts me to bed,
His heart sings for me but you are in my head.

I don't say a word, about what you have done.
The lies and deceit have now begun.
I wont say a word. I love you too much,
to admit to myself that I'm hurt by your touch.
I fall off to sleep and then there are the dreams.
You sit there blank as my body silently screams.
You wont notice the difference that's come over me.
I love you too much, I won't let you see.