Jacob, just go dance with her. (twilight related at parts)

You and i had something different.
and i was enjoying it.
I'm still battle scarred
and working so very hard
to get back to who i use to be.

you told me you cared.
did you lie?
i told you the same.
I'd never felt so alive.

You told me you thought i was joking.
that someone as "hot" as me couldn't.
i had been told that before.
but you were the first to make
my shattered heart leap.
make my broken heart skips a few beats.

I began healing. with you by my side.
you didn't question the cuts on my wrist.
in fact you gave my life a new twist.
You told me you had done it too,
with a pen of all things.
i laughed and approved.

before long you were my werewolf.
i called you Jacob,
and you once called me rensemee.
things shouldn't have had to change.
they shoulder stayed that way

i wouldn't be there the next day.
i didn't tell you.
it was the day of the new years dance.
little did i know you wanted to take a chance.

i knew you had liked her for so long.
but if i recall you told me your
love for her was no longer strong.

still you took a chance.
wanted to ask her to dance.
you had just finished mending my heart.
could've known you'd tear it apart.

yet i still cant understand...
see i was told you were going up to her,
but then you turned away.
were you shy, or thinking of me?
did you finally feel guilty?

if you had asked, and she said yes,
would you imagine it was me there,
wearing a little black dress?
would you even care?

don't answer.
i think you've done enough.
i had a broken heart to begin with.
one you mended with glue.
but glue doesen last forever.
apparently neither does the love
i once shared with you.

** i know its long but thanks if you read it** this is probrobly like one of my best. i have this friend whoi call Jacob. its his middle name. and once on a text he called me renesmee. because in twilight series.... spoiler! (( Jacob falls in love with Bella's daughter,renesmee.)) anyway we could've been together. everyone already thought we were already. but i was in a diff city for the schools new year dance. but i guess he still liked the other girl a little. so he tries walking up to her but then he just turns away. i know this cuz' my friends texted me like right after school, and were like omg i have bad news. and the sad part is the girl, me and her are like really good friends, (were with eachother everyday) and she really doesent like him that way. she said she would have said no, if he had asked. so i still like him so much, and he liked me alot too. but i just like dont know anymore if hes always gonna have a place in his heart for her, than idont think i can fit him into my broken one.

thanks again if u read all that too. :-)