The day passed my so slowly today.
Every thought just raced to you.
Why do I miss you like the moon misses the sun
when he refuses to shine his love upon her.
Denying her radiant beauty.
Why can I not radiate, why does my sun not shine.
why do these tears fall like rain.
Drowning out the rest of the world.
Locking me with in my head.
Holding so tightly not letting go.
Growing so haunting by every passing moment.
The ghostly image of your face fading in and out.
Laughing, smiling, crying and angry.
All memories I was trying to erase.
But in the end you're always right.
I can't erase you, can't let you go.
Heaven is a state of being.
One I only felt wrapped in you arms.
You can't forget that, can't erase that.
not what has made you whole, not what's saved you.
And you've been that, My personal Jesus.
My Savior, my golden gate into heaven.
And now, I life in a personal.
Haunted by your voice, your touch.
Sending cold endless shivers through my soul.
I've fallen so far from you grace.
I fear I'll never be on top the world again.
And perhaps at the bottom is where I belong.
perhaps I never belonged there in the first place.
Perhaps a ploy to to give and take.
Show me a world I never knew.
One I was never suppose to.
Just to take it away.
and leave me yet again cold and alone.
So here I sit, surrounded by these cold dark walls.
With you picture in my hand trying to let go.
Let go of what little happiness I've know.
But I fear it's not possible, not in this world.
how did I let this happen.
how did I go so wrong.
Forgive me my heaven for I have betrayed you
