Find something sharp
Dig deep into pain
Urgent, emergency
Hide away, lost from sight
Let me free, fear
Set me loose, life
It's time to die
Time to end.
Curled in a closet
Bleeding from the heart
Rose colored crimson
Long rivers begin
Tears are the waterfalls
Roaring in the background
Silence swallows the time
I'm so small, so worthless
Empty, a hollow shell
You accuse me of these things
Really, you're not right
I'm not a little girl
My age just a number, a day
Time for me is endless
Suffering never ceases
Good days are tormenting
Held over my head, waiting
The calm before a storm
New vein opened
Pale face, cold shivers
Rope tied tighter,
Cutting into the neck,
Pills kick in
They told me they stopped pain
I can tell you
The pain-killers just kill
I will die, soon.
Blue lips, gray skin
Shivering violently
Peaceful endings
Drugged and bound
I'm the real me now,
The one who WAS and will never be again
Eyes bug
Teeth chatter
Why haven't I gone?
New cut, another thorny river
Salty tears, rustic blood
The smell
Overpowering
The pain
Welcoming
Death
Not coming yet
...
Still waiting
Another day
Another time
Maybe this
Simple rhyme
I shout in my head
Breath coming shallow
Eyes completely close
Life draining
Life gone
Life dead
The end
Just like that
No worrisome sounds
Or crying friends
Small.
So small.
Negligible.
Simple.
Lost.
Forever taken.
No one caring
Life passed.
Deceased body.
Swallowed pain
Fear leaving
It's over.
Over
But yet
I still feel small
