If only...

If only i could tell you how i feel
but keeping it a secret is what ima do just keep
my lips sealed...
If only you could know that i desire to be with
another man and i need the touch of his hand...
If you knew that my heart beats for him and not for you...
Everytime I see you, i wanna tell you but the
words are left unspoken with my mouth opened...
You always tell me stop living in the past, live for the future and I asked how do I do that when im always looking back...
I wanna move on but it isn't easy for me when the
man i love keeps coming back to me...
I never want to hurt you cause I know how its feels
but I never wanna lie too you neither cause it'll just
bring tears...
I'm sorry, a million times I'm sorry but i dont love you... I LOVE HIM ♥