I've fought the fight, I've made my way,
I've made my life secure, thinking
there would always be a way out,
even though I wasn't sure.
The walls are thick. windows barred,
leaving my emotions brutally scarred.
I have no release from my frustration.
I'm craving a simple explanation of why
these things are happening so fast.
Everyones abandoning me. Even though
I know the fault is my own. I'm pushing
with parts of me that I didn't even know
I possessed.
I'm not obsessive. I'm not good for nothing.
I'm not as bad as they say I am.
then why do I feel so badly now after what
they say has come and went.
I'm going to explode into nothing,
empty shell of what I was.
I'll say nothing.
I shall not speak a word,
for there is the fear that if I do
than none of them would be heard.
I'm so tired of all these things to handle,
so many things to sort through.
I just want something to do. somewhere to go
that would put all of this behind me in a hurry.
It's getting so blurry and coming at me all at once,
I want to sleep well. just this once.
God it's just so difficult. so I deserve all this?
Did i do something so wrong?
I need an answer. soon.
