I'm So Afraid

I'm so afraid to tell you
What happens in my head
The thoughts that leak out
Wishing I was dead

I'm so afraid you'll notice
Something is amiss
That I crave distraction
Even just a kiss

I'm so afraid you'll see
The terror in my eyes
As I wish away the tears
Threatening to arise

I'm so afraid you'll think
I'm upset because of you
When you're the only thing
That really pulls me through

I'm so afraid you'll be afraid
Of the things inside my head
That you'll want to leave me
And then I will be dead.