I hear It all around me;
rippling under my skin,
breathing down my back.
This thing
You call It life; I call It suicide
I taste It now lingering on my lips
Feel It pulsing through my veins,
Its always here, suffocating me
It doesn't help that I get off to the pain,
I crave It
The self-destruction of my own emotional blood lust
that I cant resist.
I never knew how far It would lead me
Until I found myself begging for someone to break me.
Wanting to be pushed to the edge,
a desire for the high that would compel Lucifer to his knees.
I feel the adrenaline seeping through every pore;
letting the agony and rage seethe to torment myself.
It makes me wear a smile, so they will never know
I dont want them to know.
Even so they will never reach me, Its already too late.
I feel the darkness surround me;
As It engulfs me in flames
Yet, I see beauty in It's eyes as my whole world begins to burn.
And with my existence ablaze;
I become ash beneath Its feet.
