I watched the flames cavort...
dangerously close to my feet
My body tranquil and shivering,
my mind in a state of entropy!
The fire, the Fire!
Should I take a step forward
Should I took a leap back?
Should I have vaulted off that cliff
When I had the chance?
Fallen flat on my back, gazing
with eyes unblinking, unfeeling
except the fire that had scorched its pupils...
I feel the rumble of the sand beneath me
An earthquake, every time a plane flies overhead
And every time, I whisper "I missed my flight."
Then, in a fit of coughing and laughter
They rush off into the blackness of the waves
I try to follow! The wind breaking my breath!
Clutching my stomach, struggling to stand
A collapse in remission, weakening in the knees
Waiting at the shoreline, I tremble but not from cold
In desperation, I thrust my eyes to the sky-
And disregard the screaming, drowning images
of all the friends I could have saved...
What good does swimming do me now?!
They've all been swallowed by the waves!
The Sky! the Sky!
The multitude of airplanes swarming in Dark Blue
Have replaced the mystical era of radiant stars!
I look around in a panic, searching for the shallow moon...
Then I cringe as all numbness in my feet is lost
And the freezing wind so harsh it tingles and burns
Then their shadowy figures rush out of the water
And dizzy from sickness and fear, delusions take over
and I am tortured in the chamber of my own thoughts
Remembering the last time they laughed with me,
the way his smile made me feel like he wouldn't forget me
The feel of my dog's nose as he nudge me onto the couch
and the tears that swept down my face because of love
And the wretched emptiness that hid behind those tears!
Then flaming harsh laughter and the icy realization
The tone from the receiver that he no longer loved me
Oh, how could I have been so naive, so deceived!
Then the body convulses and the fail of shuddering strength!
The fire, the Fire!
a bonfire burning the barriers of this heart
The pandemonium of an epiphany breaking the hush...
The sky, the Sky!
Thousands of planes...
...blocking out the stars....
Then, the crash, and the fire in the sea!
Oh why, did I miss my flight?
The fire, the Fire!
Shouts and pops and breaks, summoning me...
the flames caress and wrap around me
Oh this burning never felt so good...
Scorching my ears, oh beautiful music!
I awaken in the sand...
The prey I hunted hovering over me...
Blurry voices beckoning my focus
They stand over me, the friends that died!
Breathing on my face....Life...
And I strangle my finger...till I feel a pulse
Then sigh, and wish I had a long enough rope
To lasso one of those planes and take off!
