Depression (Acrostic)

Desperate to find hope in the misery
Everyday is becoming harder to survive
Pretending to be alright when I am not
Reality isn't something easy to live by
Eager to find love in what became shame
Suppressant getting closer to my last day
Suicide on my mind because it feels right
Ignorance is beautiful if no other way
Oath-breaking promises were bound to occur
Nacreous memories that once were
(will never be again)