So Sick

I am so sick of being hurt
Watching my heart get stomped in the dirt
To give and give until I can�t give any more
Give without abandon and not know what�s in store
My heart can�t take much more of what It�s been dealt
Feels like ice cream in the sun just waiting to melt

So I start wondering to myself

Where can I find a man that gives a damn
To just walk down the street and hold my hand
To just sit with me and let me cry
To just be my everything without having to try
To start a new life all afresh
To be someone who will give me their best

Then I think to myself

I have to revel on the fact that life changes with every breath
That maybe it is me that has no depth
That I look to much at the face value of things
That I settle too much on just what life brings
Maybe I should like me more then I will want the best
So I can let go and love without a second guess

Then I sigh to myself

What do I want in a man
Hell he has to be someone that I can stand
Who has every attribute that I can think of
And not have to wonder is this really a guy I could love
Who will love me for who I am and not demand
That has a love for me that feels like it will never end

Then I smile