Falling in love with a lie

I don't think I can handle this life
everything has gone black
all i have is your advice
but listening is something I lack
so here is where i stand
thinking of what I've done
with a knife in my hand
wondering if it were better if i was gone
if you could be happy again
without me even here
a new life you could begin
but as you start to appear
i hear your voice say
"stop it right now, just come here!"
i try to move
but something stopped me
i don't think my heart approves
this is why can't you see
its that you tore my heart out
and now i have nothing
except for some doubt
and as i get closer my heart starts aching
it still hasn't gotten over you
it knows your close
but you really have no clue
but i guess thats what you chose
is to leave me alone
without you to die
i feel in a pain zone
but i guess thats what you get when you fall in love with a lie