I know this feeling way to well. My sistuations a little diferent, but some wut the same. I lost someone dear to me, and feel shes irreplacable, and that no one can compare to her, but she died, and i still hold her in my heart so dear to me. I have moved on, im 21 yrs old and married with a kid and another on the way, but i do infact love my wife, and i would do anything for her. Yet there are times i wonder,"What if?" how would my life be different, how would it be simalar, would i still be the man i am today? the answear is, i truly dont know, but at then i look at my wife, and figure, despite everything, I am truly happy with the life i do have.
I guess what im saying is, dont look to the past for the answears to your questions, look to the future, look to wut is and wut is to be. if the guy your with is a good guy and he loves you, dont push him away, embrace him, but at the same time make sure he knows that you still have troubles letting go of the past. Im not telling you to forget, im not telling you not to want it back, but i am saying is, its gone, and there is only so much you can do about it, for me, there is nothing, i cant go back in time and stop her death, i cant bring her back. dont let yourself live in the pain, for that is pointless, the past is the past for a reason.
My personal mantra is this,
Remember the past and learn,
Live in the present and know,
Look to the future and hope,
We has humans are only worth the wieght of our chooses,
this is only advice, you can hate me for it, or you could respectfully ignore it, or you can thank me for it. it is the way i live, i dont try to push my way of life on others, but i will offer my way of life to those who i need something new to go off of. everyone deserves to be happy, everyone deserves to for tommaro

This was very well done. It has a constant flow and it's easy to read. The diction fits the simple style of the poem wheich is good. I like how each stanza leads into the next, it's flawless. Very good job, I enjoyed it. Nik