Suicide, such a disgusting word

Suicide, it's something i've been thinking about. Not too seriously, but i have been
thinking about it.
I don't know what they could have said to sway me either way. Maybe i was being selfish, maybe i was just looking for attetion, maybe i just wanted to hear people discuss me
and my problems.
or maybe i wanted someone to point a finger at me and say "are you thinking about killing yourself?"
But deep down, the truth was that the only person saying that was me.

Deep down, those were my words......