All growing up, I blamed everyone but me
It was always someone elses fault to a certain degree
When something went wrong, or everything fell apart
I pointed the finger, for my broken heart
All I wanted was someone to listen but no one was there
All I wished for as a child was for someone to care
I needed my mother but she needed that dumb bottle
Growing up all my life that was my role model
The fighting in my family never came to a end
The pain from the hurtful words will never mend
As soon as something started to go right in my life
Everything went wrong, and once again turned to strife
I tried to think positive, look on the bright side
I tried to swallow the pain and hold onto my pride
But the tears just kept falling, and the memories never fade
All I could focus on, were the mistakes I had made
I should of tried harder, I should of took time
But now I sit here, and make excuses through rhyme
I know I am smarter, and I know of could of went far
I shouldn't of spent all that time wishing on a star
I shouldn't of been dreaming of a happier life
I shouldn't of spent so many nights with that knife
I should've been different, I should've been great
But the chances are gone, I'm too little too late
So take these simple words of advice
That only hoping for happiness doesn't suffice
Take charge of your life, forgive but never forget
Remember mistakes in life happen, so never regret
