Loves eyes look upon me with adoration,
and at times Love seems surprised and in awe
of how the blessings of "We" came to be......
Loves fingers touch me as tender and as gently
as an angel's wings slowly caressing my skin.....
Love treats me as if I am the prize, for everything
that Love has done right in their lifetime.....
Ungratefulness is what engulfs me because I am
unable to feel what Love is surrendering to me.....
I have been looked upon by Love in a way that I
have always hoped for.....
I have been touched by Love in a way that I have always dreamed of.....
I have been treated by Love in a way that I have always prayed for.....
But.....I am unable to embrace Love, because it does not come from the one at which my heart seeks, it does not come from the one I so adore.....
And yet I still welcome Love, each and everytime Love
comes calling. I will not turn down an opportunity to see Love smile at me. I will not turn down a chance to do the dance of romance that Love does with me.....
Although I must selfishly admit, that I, at times, close my eyes, and wish that I, was with the one that I long for, during the time, that I am engaging in acts with Love, that in all honesty should be cherished not just by Love, but by, the both of us......
I am so afraid that the next time I pray to God to send me "The One", he will simply reply, "My foolish child, I sent you Love and the happiness that Love brings. It is not my fault that you were not specific enough in your prayers of whom the Deliverer would be......"
Does this mean that this Love is my one chance, and that no other Love will come my way? I mean this Love is in no way a bad Love, and I guess I could Love this Love. But what if while I am Loving Love, I miss my chance at my one "True Love"? Although "This Love" is... the truest or the realist Love I've seen.....
Love tells me that it has no expectations from me in order to Love me. Love says, "Love does not expect, Love only hopes." But what if I wait too long, waiting on "The One" that I long for, and when I finally do look for Love, Love is no longer there because all of Love's hope is gone...?
Oh, I am quite certain that the Love will always be there, but do I want to gamble on Love still being there, and am I prepared to live without Love ever being there again....?
I know what Love hopes for , but before anything else, Love asks for honesty to Love and to myself, right now I cannot embrace a Love that may very well be...
"The One". When in all honesty, I feel that at this point,
this Love is not "The One" for me......
