If All Else Fails

Push you away,
far, far away,
into the infinity that lies beyond
these four padded walls.

Must not, can not,
emergency exits required.
Take my straight jacket and
escape this world. Forever.

Ignorance is bliss
for the ignored.
A nuisance for the one
who is suffering.

Me, the sufferer,
crying each night:
You haunt me
like a nightmare.

Forget me.
Leave me here.
Leave me to rot and
continue your life.

You don't want.
Don't want to.
To be here.
Not this insanity.

If it all ends.
If we all die.
If all else fails,
I may love you.

But don't.
Don't hold your breath.
Suffocation is painless,
unlike my existence.

So I'll push you away.
Far, far away.
But if all else fails,
I will love you.

If all else fails,
I'll love you.
Love you forever.
I'll. Love. You. Forever.