I want the words to come and flow straight out of my mind,
Play out like a movie of my life that we can just rewind,
I want to show you exactally who I am inside,
What it is that always makes my heart and mind collide,
I'm living a life that for me is too fast pace,
Wishing everyday my past decisions will just erase,
Never thinking I am good enough for anyone I care for,
Feeling my eyes grow colder, knowing it's something they will ignore,
I am someone people come to when they need advice,
So I stop to help letting my own needs be the sacrifice,
I have been very lucky dating people i dont deserve,
Forcing to keep a smile and possitive thinking afterward,
I want so bad to just give in reopening the scars on my arms,
Doing drugs to take the pain away lost in narcotic charms,
I've done my best to keep away from the temptation,
Seeing what drugs can do causing pain and devistation,
I dont think my story is going how i hoped it would,
After it has been read I'll probably still be misunderstood,
But I hope its clear to the reader at least to some degree,
These are only true facts, the things outsiders cannot see.
