You've been gone for ten years
still think about you every single day
constantly
miss you so much
sometimes I just want to cry and cry
just not go on
some days I feel good
because I know you're in a safe place
some days just be sad
because you're not here right beside us
I still blame myself
I didn't know you were sick till it was too late
still remember that day you were home in a hospital bed
you was so small and you're hair was gone
my mom told me you was too sick to speak
you could only wave and whisper
When we left I told you bye
the next day I made you a get well card on the computer
soon later, my mom told me you died
I broke down then stopped
I didn't want my family to think I was weak
But i was because I was missing you and im still am
im sorry
so sorry I was such a rotten child and gave you a hard time sometimes
I didn't know you was sick
I live with this guilt everyday of my life
I would do anything just to hear your voice again
I know i will one day
one day this pain and anxiety will disappear
I miss you
I love you
and will never forget you and let you out of my heart
