My Iron Curtain

Although I cannot feel the pain
Your love is like a poison dart
Emotions, they are stuck behind
This iron curtain in my heart

The world thinks I am still alive
But deep inside I know I'm not
A heartbeat's not mortality
My empty heart is all I've got

A breath is not a sign of life
Nor is a nod, nor DNA
None of those things change what I am
A respirating, walking grave

No, Life's an ever-present spark
In the heart and in the eye
But where that spark should be are tears
That spark is snuffed out when I cry

In truth I do not want to love
I simply want something to feel
Shame or pain or happiness
I only need to know I'm real

See, I'm immune to all emotions
With icy water in each vein
It numbs my body, numbs my soul
But dullness is a type of pain

My blood bleeds black - at least I bleed
It isn't pain that makes these tears
But absence of humanity
Causes what I think are fears

The lies I tell to you are true
Although we must remain apart
Inside I only want to break
This iron curtain in my heart