Killing To Be Free

I forever try to be as free from thee,
At the heart of the world my love I've seen,
Never in my heart to be,
I wonder for how i must act,
Serious, funny, with glee or misery,
At my center of the world,
Jealous of the love around me,
Everywhere I look it is dark,
Ready to live life and see beyond the darkness,
Killing to live and it just doesn't happen