At first the friendship was casual,
Later; the walks became a ritual,
The feeling was mutual,
The wheels of time moved with pace,
It was she who was to chase,
Eyes on me just to gaze,
Even though I seemed unfazed,
I admit; her spontaneity made me amaze.
Finally came her question,
Amidst a lot of apprehension,
The answer was NO; not to mention,
Which went the whole session,
To her objection,
The summer was over,
Spring was to cover,
From 'best friends' changed to 'lover',
Love instantaneously began to shower,
A kiss; was bound to tower,
Maybe; it was Feb 14th; valentines day power!
The relationship was cute,
With a innocent love to hoot,
She did seem happy with the loot,
Or maybe she was just mute,
For me it perfect first love to boot.
3 and a quarter months had past,
I assumed the relationship was to last,
Though it seemed the perfect cast,
But for her the love was already at half mast.
The tension was obvious and vast,
The split came pretty fast.
I lamented,
Maybe the love had fainted?
My feelings were dented,
But it was me, who was to be banted,
The reason for the split was indeed;
My deed.
Her precious presence was being taken for granted.
Life after the split was sad,
Though I wanted to reconcile like mad,
For her I was just too bad,
I was her 'ex' & someone she 'had',
We had drifted kinda apart,
A new 'best friend' had taken my part,
I was like a missed dart,
Life was hell.
Then came a fresh breath of air,
She again started to care,
Though we werent no more a pair,
Still the feeling was lovely and fair,
The meetings restarted in our lair.
Now the role reversal took effect,
It was I who was to propose and depict,
But for her 'close friendship' was perfect,
Things were moving at the pace of an insect,
For me; the relationship still had a defect.
It is Feb the 14th again,
im walking her lane,
Nervous; swarmed with anxious pain,
To ask her out again,
God willing its a boon this time and not a bane,
She looks like beautiful pretty Jane,
I kissed her on her mane.
If only she would give a sign,
I'd know if have got a chance.
If only you could read my mind,
Help me out and ask me to dance.
Maybe I'll just flash a smile,
and hope that you might smile back, too.
It might help sum up the courage
to put my heart out on the line for you.
If I said "I love you"
Would you say you love me, too?
Waiting for reply in agony and shock,
Her expressions were more like a mock,
With my world crumpling in my sock,
My whole body felt like a rock,
She had me totally in the dock,
Waiting for her reply to hit me like a thunderbolt.
I was in a choke.
This fear of rejection brings me to my knees,
Deep inside I wanna hide,
Just in case you don't pick me.
Fear of rejection is drivin' me insane,
What the heck, stick out your neck,
im goin' down in flames!
If I said "I love you"
Would you say you love me, too?
