My life was never like my friends
At school my parents werent there for the play's, trips or funn
Looking into the croud
Everyones parents waving back
Tears im trying to hold back
Kids asking Y arnt your parents here???
Dont they love you??
I starting to become "shy"
I started to know to just expect that i cant make them proud y even try, I just couldnt understand
To have parents to love and hold
Mine always ended in lies, sex and tears
I learned this was a family
THose kids playing ball with there dad
Those kids shopping with there mom
I never had anything come close
My hole life i been alone
Praying , hoping the relizing i wanted a family
I always though im not good enough
That i did someting wrong
Poeple looking, people staring, people talking
No one cared to help
Alone crying at night
I just wanted something to eat
Sometimes i could move
Hurt with a belt, chain or just hit an beat
Yelling for help
Relizing your alone
Getting older and so lost and confussed
Searching for love in the wrong places
Your trying to change but cant see what u did wrong
Nothing can make you understand y your parents didnt care
Everything u do now is wrong
Becuz of what they taught you
I cry and cry
Alot of the time i want to die
Its taking alot for me to relize that i can do this
Its hard to see life will get better
When someone gives me attation
When someone shows me love
I jump at the chance to feel special
Or something i never had
I dont know what love means
I dont know what its like to care
I never know how i feel
My past killed me in every way possible
The question now
How do i survive???
