Valentines day..

Why does this day exist?
why does such a disgusting thing seem to live on?
it just makes me so pissed
a day thats made up by the man
to buy and buy
till the end of your life-span
to buy endless things that mean nothing
and just dump the one you say you love in just 2 weeks any way
there has to be something
i got a rose at school today
i had to burn it
there was just no other way
why why do i have to though this horrible day
its just stupid
nobody loves me anyway
its a pest
its disgusting
but i guess

i just gotta go through this day he rest of my life.....or i could just end it with a knife

*i always feel bad when its valentines day...for some reason i always wanna kill myself
for starters i got a rose today and i have no idea who its from
the actual woman i love is so far away that i cant even touch her....it...it just makes me so angry..and sad*